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Name: Esther
Location: California, United States
Birthday: 1/18/1988
Gender: Female
Interests: tennis,draw, anime, and cause some MisChieF kick it wit friends
~>make ppl LAUGH and SMILE<~
and MOST OF ALL WITH OUT A DOUBT SLEEP...hehehe... MUWA peACe...
Occupation: Student
Message: message me
AIM:  lilpnaybaby18
Member Since:
1/15/2003
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| wow i cant believe i graduated and summer has started. unfortunately the days are slowly inching by and i just was to fast forward in time and start my own life. with graduation a lot of things ended, but i am so glad i can close that part of my life and start with a new begining. i always told people that the past is what makes us who we are, the present makes us who we will be, and the future has yet to come. however, i look at my past and see myself as i stand before u now, the same person, still lost, confused, unsure, and yerning to break out of the status quo. i have yet to find out what i mean for myself. i was so concerned with others i lost touch of what i am. to me i am just an ordinary person, still searching for what some people never find. i do not think that people really know who they are, because even when they say they "found" themselves why are so many people leading sad and miserable lives. not only that they still question themselves. i have one real fear and that is failure. i dont want to wake up one day and question my life, i dont want to wake up and realize that i have been living a lie for so many years. i want to succeed and yet i know my ambitions are so high, that i just want to aim lower. however, i always seem to fail, i always fall and continue to get back up. i am just getting tired and it seems that i am the person i dont want to be. waking up and questioning myself, realizing that i am not happy that i am still lost and still yerning for "something". i dont know if ill ever find it, heck most people never do, but overall i am happy. dispite, my failures, my mistakes, and my broken heart, im happy. its strage, i feel forelorn and yet i can still smile, i continue to get up only to fall again, yet i am happy. in a strage sort of way. this summer is a begining to a lot of things and it is also an end. i will not see or talk to some of my friends and we will cease to be friends, however, with each year that always happens but it doesnt mean they didnt leave their mark on me. some people i will never forget and i hope you will never forget me. although this is an ending for many things, i look forward to the new beginings with hope, i am surprised that i can still smile after so many hardships. | | |
| wow. its been forever since i wrote in this thing
anyways i was just browsing the internet and i found something pretty interesting. its an music artist named M.I.A. its strange i listened to it and i didnt know how to respond. but let me just say shes frikken brillant. i guess it depends on your taste in music, but listen to the message she is trying to get across. its kewl. just had to write about it.
anyways , happy holidays to anyone thats reading this. im going to be updating this thing regularly cuz myspace is a lil played out. lol . | | |
| hmmm. work... i dont know what to do. i want to quit but i also want to stay. i like working there, but its begining to become really stressful. i started my manager training. so basicly im going to be a key person, which is a manager when the manager or shift leader is not there. so yesterday was my first day of training. but my manager calls and tells me that him and pat (the shift leader) cant work. and to top it off he said that a new girl is working and i had to train her. today was crap. i only had one day of training and he wanted me to close and run the store. it was such bullshit. the cooks didnt even know what they were doing. argh. since the lead cook is on vacation, we have a replacement but this cook doesnt know what he is doing. i had to deal with so many mistakes with food, and the new girl had no idea what she was doing. i mean how stupid can you be, to frikin take out the trash. since it was her first day, i didnt want her messing with the register or food order and told her to clean and check on people. but dude she FUCKED UP everything. then when i was closing and doing the end of day report, the computer gets fucked up and i had to call maintanance at 10 . i should have been out of the store at 9;15 , but the fucking computer broke down. ahhh. well im greatful that tomorrow pat is gonna be working wit me tomorrow. sign. today was a bad day!!! | | |
| well ive been working full time... its my first day off in like 2 weeks. and it feels extremely weird not to be working. i actually love working there. its really fun. i work wit this guy pat. he is frikken awesome. i love that guy. but now im goin to be trainin two new girls. i hope they are kewl. its going to be weird not to be working full time anymore. imma miss it. well janet already quit. her last day was so fun. its tradition to soak people on their last day. so there was a huge water fight after we closed. lets say no one went home dry. i got caught in the cross fire so many times. hehe. but yeah imma miss working with her. im planning to quit, but im not sure if i should yet. but yah. thats life. | | |
| hmmmm. what can i say. today was pretty insane. i got up at 6.30ish to get ready for tennis practice. and i biked like 3or 5 miles to meet up wit my friend janet so we could bike to practice together. got there at 7ish and then we had the weight room for an hour, then running, then tennis, then more running in the next 2 hours after that. then me and janet biked all the way back to her house and then across simi to sandys where we then went to the arcade to play some ddr for about an hour. it was free. hehe. after that we went to the other end of simi only to have to go back to sandys cuz we left our stuff there... o.O.
well after a few more hours of biking its like 8ish, we went back to sandys and had a jam session at her house. she was teaching me how to play electric guitar. it was frikken awesome just listening to ssandy play. shes startin up a band. it was awesome. so me and janet learnd how to play a few songs. then we biked all the way back to my house. im so tired. i was completely drained. thank god its friday. | | |
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